Monthly Archives: January 2013

Jan7

Day 07: Something you regret not having done last year.

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This subject is a bit difficult. I try not to hold onto regret.  To me things that are often regretted are things that cannot be changed and regret seems to be an emotion people hold on to and let fester letting it grow and suck the life out of them. I try not to hold on to things that do not nourish me as person or inspire some kind of growth or happiness. I try…

Last year I had loss in my life. It was really the first time I can ever say that I’ve lost a loved one. It is the first time I have lost pets and family that I was very close to. I’m going to talk about something I can work on preventing in the furture.

I regret not being a better pet owner. I regret not paying attention to and following the signs that I know where there. Instead of following my instincts I put it off and went to work or  out for the day. It was more wait and see than it should have been. They were common mistakes that anyone really could have made, but they are the things I regret the most. It gives me anxiety over getting more pets. Or getting pets that have a short lifespan, I am anxious over the possible guilt and the impending loss of another one. I think part of me would write off people if I could. My next pet will have to be one that gives off better signs of illness.

Rabbits are fragile little monsters. Next time I’m getting insurance for them. http://www.rabbit.org/faq/sections/medical.html

Jan7

Day 05 and Day 06

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Since I missed a couple days I’m going to work extra hard to catch up today.

DAY 05 – Something you that gives you balance. – Ok so I will not talk about my husband for this one. I would say hiking , but even though I love it – it angers and frustrates me sometimes.  I try not to need one specific thing to balance me out. It can be any number of things but I think it is always some small change. Dying my hair, painting my nails, getting a hair cut, doing something drastic but not so drastic or permanent. Something to shock me out of a rut or that I enjoy long enough for my mood to change. Something that gets me out of the headspace where there is no hope. It does not have to be calming or give me any sense of pleasure at the time, but it has to be different from what is going on around me. If shit is chaotic then it needs to be calming like a walk or a bubble bath or a good book. If life is boring or monotonous it need needs to be adventurous. As much as a love a good set of rules or a box to think in and around I cherish the times where I get to be more out of the ordinary or force myself to stretch a little farther. And I cherish people in my life that will force it every once in a while or encourage it if there is something brewing inside.

DAY 06 – something that excites you or brings you joy. – Food and the reasons to make a big meal or other people. I am discovering more and more how much I like cooking and exploring food. I like trying new recipes and I like feeding other people. I don’t get to do it often because it is usually just the two of us, but occasionally I will make deserts for work potlucks. If on the rare occasion we have people over I’d rather cook for them then order out. The science behind cooking and baking is amazing and then when you’re done with an experiment you get to eat it. How cool is that? Of course some things will not turn out well, and hopefully you remember what might have gone wrong for next time. I like to take pictures of the cooking process, but I get so wrapped up and lost in the whole thing that I’ll forget half way through and hopefully remember to take a picture of the finished product. Some of my favorite foods? Pickled green beans and seafood. I will fight you for a jar of pickled beans and though simple I’m super excited to have gotten my grandma’s recipe for Christmas. This is by far the one I am looking forward to making the most this coming year. If I had a green thumb I’d grown my own beans, but I seem to kill anything I touch. I’m probably not patient enough for that part of the process. But I will be eying the farmers market in June.

Jan4

Day 04: Something that is part of your routine that you enjoy.

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This is going to sound sappy and mushy and probably expose more about my life than necessary.  AND it is probably going to sound way more like a newlywed than I want it to. Stop rolling your eyes.

The things about my routine involve time I get to spend with my husband. We normally wake up in the morning together and get ready together. This includes the 15 minutes in the shower (yes together) were we talk, eating breakfast and having morning coffee. This past week we have had different schedules and it bums me out. Shower time is sometimes the only time we have no distractions. We are there doing the normal shower thing, talking about the day or plans we need to make or just doing nothing but showering in the quiet. This is our mini version of hiking conversations. Most of the time it starts the day off in a calm focused manner before work makes it a crappy day.  Breakfast is normally just cereal and coffee but it is another half hour to wake up and enjoy each other’s company.

In the five and a half years we have been together I have gone grocery shopping alone exactly twice. Once he was out town for work and the other time he was also working and spent nearly zero time at home that weekend. I will not do it again – I will have someone shop for me and swing by to pick it up if we don’t have time to go together, but the stores around us are too crazy to brave alone. In this case we go together to keep each other from buying the cookie aisle or random other things or possibly to encourage the other to buy random things. It is a team effort hunt for things and battle the crazies.

My personal routine? Painting my nails. This happens at least once a week and it is my own personal girly moment.

Jan2

Day 02: A memory about Cousin S

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Today is my wonderful cousin S’ birthday. Cousin S is older than I am and loved to try and trick the younger ones into calling her Aunt S. Cousin S was the one to babysit, sit at the kids table and be the “cool aunt”. She made sure we matched our socks and would pick us up late at night to go to Meijer and just wander around. (though I was so young it was probably only 8 or 9 at night). I remember riding in the car with her, until we were nearly her size and sometimes after, if she had to stop faster than she would like, she would stretch her arm out across the passenger seat to make sure we didn’t slip out of the seatbelt. She drove a stick for a long time and would talk to the “dummy light” on the dashboard. I remember when she moved into the dorms at college and the loft beds with the notched 2×6 for a ladder. I love my planner and list maker Cousin. Without her we would have completely forgotten to do posed pictures for at our wedding. Without her I would probably never wear matching socks.

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Jan1

Day 01: Something you’re looking forward to this year.

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I am looking forward to PAXEast & seeing my littlest sister. We bought tickets the day they came out and this will be her Christmas present. We have been planning for a while to bring her down in the summer or sometime so that she could actually get to know her sister. ( I moved away from home when she was just barely starting school, so there is some catching up to do. ) Since we were taking this time off anyway and will be visiting my brother-in-law’s family at the same time, this seemed like the best way to combine our worlds.

You can tell by the way we look that we are related. If you got all of us in a room together you could certainly tell that she and my other sister are related. My parents certainly raised a bunch of nerd girls. We are weird. We are into comic books and video games and just other non-traditional girl things. I wish we lived closer to my sisters. I would love to be able to get to know them as people instead of the “baby” and the “annoying little sister.” I think we are working on it now, but it would certainly be easier if we were all in the same country/timezone.

I’m looking forward to PAXEast because its quality time with one of my sisters and .. well its PAX… who wouldn’t be excited for that.

 

Other things I am looking forward to…

  1. First anniversary with the new husband.
  2. Christmas with my parents (fingers crossed)
  3. Going back to school
  4. Finding a non-contract job
  5. Hiking season.

 

 

 

Jan1

30 days

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With everyone talking about new years resolutions, whether it is making them or hating them or knowing better than to actually make one it has gotten me thinking about habits. Habits and how much I hate this time of year because the gym is overcrowded and horrible.

30 day challenges seem more reasonable and possibly more likely to be habit forming if the benefits of them are that great. Read the rest of this entry →