Monthly Archives: March 2013

Not a workaholic


I am not one of those people who work all the time. Sometimes I will get caught up on a project but I never feel the need to always be at work. That could also be because I have a job, not a career. Even when I had a “career” teaching I never wanted to be working all the time, I just had too much to do, that it felt like I had to be working all the time to exercise get anything done.
Maybe it’s because I don’t have to manage people. I try to build a good foundation for the tasks I’m doing so with a) anyone else can do them with minimal preparation and b) that issues that come up can be handled or at least not ruin all the work that has been accomplished.
I don’t want to be at work all the time. I don’t want a job that I have to take home with me constantly. I say this as I’m working from home. But i know that I don’t have to do this every night or even weekly. Just when the extra time is required, projects few and far between. I try to have high standards for the job that I do so that I don’t have to scramble and I don’t feel rushed for my own fault. I do not see everyone I work with doing this.
I shouldn’t compare my work habits to others, but i do and even though I am stressed out right now, I know it is something that that will pass and it is not something I did to myself.
Really? I hate working from home when there are a million other things I could be doing. I really want to do some school work or talk to Jill who I haven’t been talked to in weeks. Baking bread? I’d rather be doing that.
I don’t want a job where it takes away from the quality of life I have with my family and friends. If that means never having a real career, that’s ok with me, life will have other meaning than what I do for a living.

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So my employment status is a little less up in the air, which is good, but I will feel better when it has been finalized. I can at least plan on doing things that I want to later in the year – like going up north to visit family and maybe another vacation.

I’m debating taking a break from facebook and social media this weekend because it only seems to depress me. I see friends being happy with visitors and other friends and I just feel jealous where I would normally feel happy for them. It makes me feel a little vacant and lonely. I’m sure listening to all of my old music isn’t helping. The majority I accumulated when I had my close friends at hand all the time.  It makes me miss them today, instead of some days where it makes me feel warm and fuzzy.

PAX is at the end of the month and we will be heading up to Boston with my littlest sister (w00 J3) and staying with our niece and inlaws. I’m excited to see family. I’m excited that we get to see my parents for a little while during the sister transfer.

Today is my sister J2’s birthday. She spent it in Hong Kong (well yesterday, timezones are weird.) Her present is still sitting in my dinning room. I really need to mail it. I can’t wait until she gets back to the states. We have odd periods of being close or adversaries. I’m sure this is normal…?

Today is also the birthday of our (basically) adopted sister J4. She is in Colorado with her sisters celebrating. They are posting pictures.

I think I’ve officially given up on my school work for today.