Monthly Archives: March 2010



my friend Scott is in ICU. there is a woman also in ICU with the same thing he has and just as bad. his lungs look better and his heart is under control and all the things that should be happening are… except he’s not actually getting better. Now he has sepsis. all the things that can treat it they’ve been doing and it didn’t prevent it so I don’t know how they’re going to treat it.
Scott’s boyfriend practically lives at the hospital. His family too. The room they him in is so boring and quiet. all you hear is machines unlesss someone is talking and even then that’s mostly drowned out. they don’t have the tv on or music playing. if he is aware of things it’s got to be torture. the boyfriend plays music when he can but the family won’t let him leave an iPod playing when no one is there.
I don’t know if they’ve given up or are just super reserved but they seem very cold sometimes.

but there is still a chance no matter how slim.

this started three weeks ago as a cold. then it was pneumonia. then it was a trip to the ER and the next thing you knew he was in icu knocked out. all over 3 days. and it’s not a cool virus. the little bitch causes stupid shit like pink eye and the cold. it just freaked out this time.

stuff my dad sends me


“Keep the faith. faith is good, no matter what you have faith in. I’m praying to the universe. ”

“If there’s no great glorious end to all this, if nothing we do matters … then all that matters is what we do. ‘Cause that’s all there is. What we do. Now. Today. I fought for so long, for redemption, for a reward, and finally just to beat the other guy. Because, if there’s no bigger meaning, then the smallest act of kindness is the greatest thing in the world.” — Angel, “Epiphanies”

Dad can always make me smile.



friend in icu was better today. lungs sound better and drugs might be working.

I had my second interview which was really short. two questions and one didn’t count. I didn’t have any for her. five minutes tops. hopefully I’ll find out the final decison soon. this whole waiting crap is killer.

had to drop otherj’s car at the mechanic again. stupid break lights. so I’m at work early with nothing to do for 20 minutes. ok only 10 left but still. waiting games suck.

Week to date


this week I applied for a promotion with the company I work for. they asked me a total of three questions. why so little?I answered most of the questions they were going to ask in my answer to their first question. one of the interviewers was scrambling to think of more to ask. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.
* I started this post on Wednesday. Since then I learned that the above was a good thing and the interview went well and that I have a second interview on monday at 11am.

this week a good friend went to the hospital with pneumonia. he’s in icu on breathing and feeding tubes. antibiotics are not helping. his body is not fighting off the infection. they have a doctor that works with infectious deseases working with him now and have moved him into a negative preasure room on case he is contagious. they may do a lung biopsy next week and are waiting on tb tests. at least they are planning on him having a next week

right now we’re pony sitting for my aunt. went to the state history museum today and may head into town tomorrow to check things out before we head home. I hope that next weekend we can have a lazy day at home with no running around. at least one of the days. we should also clean house soon. maybe next weekend.