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Jul7

Unemployed

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I hate not having a job. Right now I have enough saved and OtherJ has a good enough job to support us for a while. No huge rush, we’ll eat just fine for a while. I could go back to my old job. They like me, I have friends in middle of the road positions that want me back. I would not have to worry about my interview. I don’t necessarily want to go back, but it is tempting.

I should be enjoying my lack of something to do, but its really driving me insane. And its not like I’m not trying I put in more applications than i know what to do with. I want something I don’t have to bring home or think about other than when I’m at work. I’m good in an office, keeping other people organized, keeping me organized, on the phone – not fantastic at sales, but if it is something they need/ I like I can make it happen. I have no idea what I actually want to do with my life but that doesn’t bother me – I just want a way to pay my bills. I’d be happy working part time at a coffee shop or answering phones.

Going to a temp agency tomorrow to interview, maybe something will come of that. I’m not whining, just frustrated. Its not like I could be doing any more than I am now really. Its just a rough time to be unemployed. This will be ok, its just going to take some time. All else fails, if I have no job at the end of the month I will really look into going back to my old job.

Jun5

Everything right is wrong

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Went to dinner with friends and realized that even when you are doing the right thing someone will think you are wrong. Everyone should be kept at a distance and adults are not allowed to have friends even though you work in an incestuous ( professionally speaking ) environment as it is. Even though you do as you are told it’s not what they really want. You were supposed to figure it out even though you were not taught or even guided to what “it” is.
CNX was a better environment. At least the double speak and BS wasn’t personal and it what you were told to do was what you were supposed to do – even if it was some times impossible. I want to go back to the real world.

Hiking tomorrow, hopefully drinkin with old friends soon, I need a real break/life.

Apr26

Frustration

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When you are failing class because you have not turned ANYTHING in… this is your fault. This is not my fault. It is not my fault if you forget it in your backpack – it is not my fault if you cannot find it – it is not my fault if you forget it at home. I don’t even check until the end of the day most times… so you could slip it in at almost any point and I wouldn’t notice.

How did you get my phone number? I find this call to be an invasion of privacy. It is Sunday, my day off. 1) I have no idea how you got my phone number 2) I hope you were not trying to ask me about homework that you’ve had for a month. 3) I hope it was your sister trying to tell me something work related, because if not I’m going to be screaming at someone for giving out my number. 4) why didn’t you leave a message?

Apr10

dread

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I’m really dreading going back to work. I’m unmotivated to finish anything work related. I’m having nightmares about work. I don’t want people just showing up and disrupting and criticizing and in general make me feel like I’m failing. I feel like I’m drowning as it is 90% of the time. 61 days until I can look for a job that doesn’t involve taking everything home. I want a job where i can leave work at work. I just don’t have the motivation to work without getting paid.

Mar12

Struggle — Hiking

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Lately all I’ve wanted to do was quit. I am trying and wow am i making mistakes, but I’m learning from them. I’ve had more suspensions then i want to remember. Though two I wasn’t even in the vicinity. We moved some kids and things seem to be working better this week. Though we have I identified that issue. When moving students we found that when one student moved, their former class was much more productive and could actually work. It has been good because this was the class that nothing was getting done.
Now I want to work on a way to prepare the kids for the arrival of the suspended students and a way to keep them under control.
I feel like all I get is what I’m doing wrong, but this may be more of myself than anyone else’s view. My wonderful little demons are helping decide their next project. I think I will have them make the rubric for the project. It looks like their standards have something in there for them evaluating works… This might be a good way to fit it in.

We got to go hiking this past weekend. It was nice and warm and we napped on the top of the mountain. Found a perfect spot… also the perfect spot for me to sunburn my pastey legs. I had PLANNED on wearing jeans, but my jeans were dirty or had holes in them so at the last minute i wore shorts… which crispied my legs for a couple days. We looked at their camping sites and made plans for our first trial run.

THEN my jaw started to swell and ow… swollen lymph node had make the left side of my face look like a chip munk. It has been painful to eat for the last few days and i’ve had lots of motrin to help keep me from not being able to talk. The week is almost over and i really need a weekend.

Nov23

Family Update

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My student teaching ended 11/7/08, but they asked me to stay on as a sub, so thats what i’ve been doing since then. I’ve had a couple of uneventful days that i could do homework, but other than those i’ve been working. I’ve been in second grade, third grade, 6th grade, 7th and 8th and 9th and 10th and one day i was the PE teacher and added 4th and 5th grade to the classes i’ve had to deal with. Things are good, most of the kids are good.

I think we’re done hiking for the year, its gotten too cold. The good thing is that the last time we went hiking – though I was difficult – it was a nice day and we ended up having fun.
We’re doing thanksgiving on our own this year. Heather called today and I’m going to tell her we have plans. I don’t really want to drive out there and I’d rather do our little odd Thanksgiving we have planed. The menu: Subs, mashed potatoes, cornbread, veggies, and pumpkin pie.

We’re set to meet mom and dad and Littlest J in December. We’ve been working out regularly, I think i might have convinced the other J to do yoga at home with me. His mom’s birthday is tomorrow and I helped with the present. I’m not done with my school work because I’ve been working, but I’m close and should be done at the end of this week. There are only two school days this week which gives me Wednesday all to myself to do school work… or procrastinate…

we cleaned the house today. I looked through all my evaluations and woops… someone forgot to fill in all the boxes on one of my observations. They made comments but did not check the damn box… this makes graduating longer.